6:30 p.m.: Quizno's Oven-roasted Chicken Salad...and yes, I had the bread. It was flat bread. It was good. I did take the cheese off the salad.
1/2 Large Diet Pepsi
1/2 a package of Jolly Rancher gummies...WE WERE AT THE MOVIES!
Aren't I good with coming up with excuses??? It's my specialty!
5:00 p.m.: Just had a sampling of Churro Station's churro selection (they're opening this weekend, and they're our next door neighbor)...OF COURSE I had to try them!!! YUM...I LOVE cinnamon and sugar. Filled churros? They're ok. Strawberry was the best. I also tried chocolate-filled and apple-filled.
I'm over calories today...I'm over a lot of things today...
4:00 p.m.: one lick of cake batter...BUT, I'm not mad. Bri's trying a new recipe...I HAD to taste it.
ok...maybe it's be 25 licks...And I'm still licking and tasting....F it.
12:30-NOW: Complete breakdown YET AGAIN.
We've been baking like crazy, and all I can think about is how hungry I am....but I shouldn't be. LOOK WHAT I'VE EATEN down there ALREADY!!
BUT: I have to be F'n HONEST, so here's what I just F'N ATE:
2 tops of Glazed Donut
2 tops of plain vanilla cake
1 FULL chocolate chip cupcake
No, not a drip of buttercream...just f*cking cake.
I am so..........f'd.
I'm embarrassed...yet still eat.
I'm ashamed...and still eat.
I write it down and STILL EAT. My God....what will it take???? How many pairs of jeans can I NOT FIT INTO before I fucking change???????
lots of swearing today, folks....
11:59 a.m.: 1 chicken fajita lean pocket: 240 cal.
handful of walnuts: ??? cal.
OH yeah...and a couple of licks of M*THER F*CKING cake batter....GOD!
10:44 a.m.: 1 grapefruit: 100 cal.
9:47 a.m.: one Diet Pepsi
7:50 a.m.: Light Yoplait blueberry yogurt with plain instant oatmeal mix-in: 210 cal.
one green apple: 100 cal.
I'm actually FULL right now...
5:40 a.m.: XL Iced Coffee with 3 Equals
I write that sentence every morning HOPING today will be different with my eating...yet KNOWING that the pattern has already started.
CHANGE SUCKS.
I had a HORRIBLE day yesterday. I was BOREDOM EATING, COMFORT EATING, and just plain EATING all f*cking day....and now I have the TOO-TIGHT jeans to prove it.
I don't know why this is so hard...but, today is ANOTHER day, right?????
Thursday, August 7, 2008
Wednesday, August 6, 2008
8/6/08 FOOD LOG
7:00 p.m.: crackers, tuna, pickles, and bruschetta...in other words: SALT WITH SALT ON SALT DIPPED IN SALT.
and two fruit bars...
I don't even want to put the calories. I know it's bad...especially since my fucking jeans are so tight, and my fingers are like sausages now....F*ck..
All I can think about is CANDY CANDY CANDY...oh, and CUPCAKES. F, this is hard today. OBVIOUSLY, I'm a comfort eater....
4:10 p.m.: F. I just licked butterscotch ganache...and by licked I mean I had A LOT
3:46 p.m.: another Ham and Cheese Whole Grain Lean Pocket: 240 cal.
2:30 p.m.: 1 grapefruit (peeled like an orange from Sams Club. They are SO sweet this year!): 100 cal.
1:30: Diet Dr. Pepper Double Big Gulp (still working on it...)
11:30 a.m.: two handfuls of Baked Cheetos: 260 cal.
1 Ham and Cheese Lean Pocket: 240 cal.
1 diet pepsi
FYI: ALL I WANT TO EAT IS CUPCAKES TODAY...I'm not feelin' so great.
7:20 a.m.: 1 nectarine: 100 cal
Yoplait Light peach yogurt with oatmeal mix-in: 210 cal.
5:50 a.m.: XL Iced coffee with 3 Equals
and two fruit bars...
I don't even want to put the calories. I know it's bad...especially since my fucking jeans are so tight, and my fingers are like sausages now....F*ck..
All I can think about is CANDY CANDY CANDY...oh, and CUPCAKES. F, this is hard today. OBVIOUSLY, I'm a comfort eater....
4:10 p.m.: F. I just licked butterscotch ganache...and by licked I mean I had A LOT
3:46 p.m.: another Ham and Cheese Whole Grain Lean Pocket: 240 cal.
2:30 p.m.: 1 grapefruit (peeled like an orange from Sams Club. They are SO sweet this year!): 100 cal.
1:30: Diet Dr. Pepper Double Big Gulp (still working on it...)
11:30 a.m.: two handfuls of Baked Cheetos: 260 cal.
1 Ham and Cheese Lean Pocket: 240 cal.
1 diet pepsi
FYI: ALL I WANT TO EAT IS CUPCAKES TODAY...I'm not feelin' so great.
7:20 a.m.: 1 nectarine: 100 cal
Yoplait Light peach yogurt with oatmeal mix-in: 210 cal.
5:50 a.m.: XL Iced coffee with 3 Equals
Tuesday, August 5, 2008
8/5/08 FOOD LOG
7:20 p.m.: 14 Milton baked crakers YUM: 140 cal.
Lots of pre-cooked, pre-cut chicken breasts dipped in BBQ: 300 cal.
1 water
1 all-fruit frozen bar: 100 cal. (it was so good, I should have just had THAT instead of the other dinner...)
6:00 p.m.: 1 bite of a SPRINKLES cupcake!! (I'll blog about THAT over HERE later)
5:30 p.m.: 2 nectarines: 200 cal.
3 ish p.m.: 1/2 chicken salad 200 cal.
1/2 Diet Pepsi
11:20 a.m.: 1/2 water...still working on it. I ate SO much yesterday, I'm really NOT hungry still. I told you it was a DAY of eating!!!
9:30 a.m.: Yoplait Light Peach yogurt with instant oatmeal mix-in: 210 cal.
6:00 a.m.: XL iced coffee with 3 Equals
Lots of pre-cooked, pre-cut chicken breasts dipped in BBQ: 300 cal.
1 water
1 all-fruit frozen bar: 100 cal. (it was so good, I should have just had THAT instead of the other dinner...)
6:00 p.m.: 1 bite of a SPRINKLES cupcake!! (I'll blog about THAT over HERE later)
5:30 p.m.: 2 nectarines: 200 cal.
3 ish p.m.: 1/2 chicken salad 200 cal.
1/2 Diet Pepsi
11:20 a.m.: 1/2 water...still working on it. I ate SO much yesterday, I'm really NOT hungry still. I told you it was a DAY of eating!!!
9:30 a.m.: Yoplait Light Peach yogurt with instant oatmeal mix-in: 210 cal.
6:00 a.m.: XL iced coffee with 3 Equals
COUNTDOWN TO OCTOBER 2, 2008:
I don't have access to the internet on Mondays; hence, I will not be blogging what I eat those days...BUT, I have to let you know that yesterday was a complete BLOW-OUT in terms of eating. I literally have not consumed that many BREAD PRODUCTS in one day in YEARS...and today, I am paying for it. (I joked with Brian about me probably getting a YEAST INFECTION due to the amount of yeast I consumed yesterday).
(FYI: It was mainly PIZZA AND DONUTS...and Skittles....MY "friends" that are now my "foes.")
Let me just tell you that it was MY LAST DAY. I've FUCKING HAD IT with feeling like SHIT about myself. (I purposely DID NOT censor my swearing because I'm so DONE with myself over-indulging and feeling sorry for myself).
So, here's the deal:
My 33rd birthday is coming in October....this one isn't that big of a deal to me (when I turned 30, I had KIND OF an issue....), but this year I want one thing: TO BE IN-FUCKING-SHAPE. I don't want to be winded while walking. I don't want to feel my belly BOUNCE when I move. I don't want to FEEL my clothes digging into my stomach...
I HATE BEING GRAPHIC, BUT IT'S THE ONLY WAY TO DISGUST MYSELF INTO NOT BEING THIS WAY ANY FUCKING MORE.
I'm completely disgusted with ME...so, I'm changing ME...
By Oct. 2, 2008, I will be a NEW ME. No more bitching (at least about my weight) and no more feeling sorry for POOR ME. I'm DOING something about it.
You heard it hear first, and now I will continue to food blog and fill you in on what I'm doing on a HOURLY basis to change my body into something I LOVE instead of LOATHE.
Here we go....
(FYI: It was mainly PIZZA AND DONUTS...and Skittles....MY "friends" that are now my "foes.")
Let me just tell you that it was MY LAST DAY. I've FUCKING HAD IT with feeling like SHIT about myself. (I purposely DID NOT censor my swearing because I'm so DONE with myself over-indulging and feeling sorry for myself).
So, here's the deal:
My 33rd birthday is coming in October....this one isn't that big of a deal to me (when I turned 30, I had KIND OF an issue....), but this year I want one thing: TO BE IN-FUCKING-SHAPE. I don't want to be winded while walking. I don't want to feel my belly BOUNCE when I move. I don't want to FEEL my clothes digging into my stomach...
I HATE BEING GRAPHIC, BUT IT'S THE ONLY WAY TO DISGUST MYSELF INTO NOT BEING THIS WAY ANY FUCKING MORE.
I'm completely disgusted with ME...so, I'm changing ME...
By Oct. 2, 2008, I will be a NEW ME. No more bitching (at least about my weight) and no more feeling sorry for POOR ME. I'm DOING something about it.
You heard it hear first, and now I will continue to food blog and fill you in on what I'm doing on a HOURLY basis to change my body into something I LOVE instead of LOATHE.
Here we go....
Sunday, August 3, 2008
8/3/08 FOOD LOG
The rest of the day was CHIPS, CHIPS, and MORE CHIPS...
then we went to ESPN Zone, and it was french fries, chips, and more FRENCH FRIES...
I went COMPLETELY overboard because I was on our one-day vacay....and now it's over.
12:18 p.m.: roasted chicken thigh and leg
handfuls of baked cheetos and baked sour cream and cheddar lays
11:30 a.m.: 1 Diet Pepsi
10:05 a.m.: 1 grapefruit: 100 cal.
8:01 a.m.: Dannon Active blueberry yogurt with oatmeal mixed in: 170 cal.
7:00 a.m.: XL iced coffee with three Equals
Yesterday wasn't SO bad...I'm learning I eat too little too early, then go crazy at night. I also don't drink enough water and eat too much salt. LIKE I DIDN'T KNOW THAT ALREADY.
Today is another day.....
then we went to ESPN Zone, and it was french fries, chips, and more FRENCH FRIES...
I went COMPLETELY overboard because I was on our one-day vacay....and now it's over.
12:18 p.m.: roasted chicken thigh and leg
handfuls of baked cheetos and baked sour cream and cheddar lays
11:30 a.m.: 1 Diet Pepsi
10:05 a.m.: 1 grapefruit: 100 cal.
8:01 a.m.: Dannon Active blueberry yogurt with oatmeal mixed in: 170 cal.
7:00 a.m.: XL iced coffee with three Equals
Yesterday wasn't SO bad...I'm learning I eat too little too early, then go crazy at night. I also don't drink enough water and eat too much salt. LIKE I DIDN'T KNOW THAT ALREADY.
Today is another day.....
Saturday, August 2, 2008
8/2/08 FOOD LOG
7:20 p.m.: microwave Light Popcorn: a whole, damn bag.
1 water
6:44 p.m.: Ham and Cheese Lean Pocket: 240 cal.
4:23 p.m.: 3 chunks of watermelon...YUM YUM and cold.
4:10 p.m.: 1 grapefruit: 100 cal.
3:41 p.m.: 1 diet pepsi
1:00 p.m.: two chicken soft tacos FRESCO style: 400 cal.
1/2 of a diet pepsi
11:55 a.m.: 1 grapefruit: 100 cal.
9:30 a.m.: Peach Yoplait light with Instant Oatmeal mixed in: 210 cal.
Venti Iced Americano with 2 Equals from Starbucks (still suckin' on that)
6:30 a.m.: XL Ice Coffee with three Equals
I hope for a better day today...yesterday was complete mental chaos; hence, my diet was "in the shit" (as Gordon Ramsay would say).
I'm reading his book, and ironically, I came across a paragraph today that said the one thing he hated most was a FAT CHEF.
F!!! If THAT can't motivate me, I don't know what can.
1 water
6:44 p.m.: Ham and Cheese Lean Pocket: 240 cal.
4:23 p.m.: 3 chunks of watermelon...YUM YUM and cold.
4:10 p.m.: 1 grapefruit: 100 cal.
3:41 p.m.: 1 diet pepsi
1:00 p.m.: two chicken soft tacos FRESCO style: 400 cal.
1/2 of a diet pepsi
11:55 a.m.: 1 grapefruit: 100 cal.
9:30 a.m.: Peach Yoplait light with Instant Oatmeal mixed in: 210 cal.
Venti Iced Americano with 2 Equals from Starbucks (still suckin' on that)
6:30 a.m.: XL Ice Coffee with three Equals
I hope for a better day today...yesterday was complete mental chaos; hence, my diet was "in the shit" (as Gordon Ramsay would say).
I'm reading his book, and ironically, I came across a paragraph today that said the one thing he hated most was a FAT CHEF.
F!!! If THAT can't motivate me, I don't know what can.
Friday, August 1, 2008
8/1/08 FOOD LOG
7:20 p.m.: Total "I Don't Give an F What I'm Eating" night...and I'm totally embarrassed.
1/2 chicken and fried rice meal: 400 cal
Two jellos with cool whip: 200 cal (I like LOTS of Cool Whip)
1 water
5:30-5:44 p.m.: COMPLETE BREAKDOWN, so forget calorie content....I just F'd IT ROYALLY.
multiple handfuls of honey roasted peanuts
three tops of vanilla cupcakes
one ENTIRE chocolate chip cupcake (damn, that was EVEN BETTER than I remember)
three handfuls of butterscotch chips
multiple licks of butterscotch ganache
1 bottle of water
1 stick of Extra bubblegum to STOP THE MADNESS!!!!
I am so embarrassed, but I'm still writing this. I don't know why...I am at a loss today.
4:25 p.m.: 1 grapefruit: 100 cal.
1:01 p.m.: Extra bubblegum: 5 cal.
12:45: handfuls of Burger King chips: 300 cal.
*FULL DISCLOSURE: In order to maintain my "Queen of all things SNACK" I must be on top of ALL the new snacks that I come across. I found these babies at Walgreens (a GREAT place for finding weird food, by the way). The Flame Broiled was my favorite of the two. I'm not a big ketchup fan, but the Ketchup and Fries DID taste like ketchup and fries...good, if you're into that.
12:22 p.m.: Ham and Cheese whole grain Lean Pocket: 240 cal.
11:30 a.m.: 1 Diet Orange Soda: 0 cal.
4 baby carrots: 35 cal.
9:01 a.m.: 1 apple: 100 cal.
1 Yoplait light strawberry yogurt: 100 cal.
Happy August!
5:30 a.m.: XL Iced Coffee with 3 Equals
1/2 chicken and fried rice meal: 400 cal
Two jellos with cool whip: 200 cal (I like LOTS of Cool Whip)
1 water
5:30-5:44 p.m.: COMPLETE BREAKDOWN, so forget calorie content....I just F'd IT ROYALLY.
multiple handfuls of honey roasted peanuts
three tops of vanilla cupcakes
one ENTIRE chocolate chip cupcake (damn, that was EVEN BETTER than I remember)
three handfuls of butterscotch chips
multiple licks of butterscotch ganache
1 bottle of water
1 stick of Extra bubblegum to STOP THE MADNESS!!!!
I am so embarrassed, but I'm still writing this. I don't know why...I am at a loss today.
4:25 p.m.: 1 grapefruit: 100 cal.
1:01 p.m.: Extra bubblegum: 5 cal.
12:45: handfuls of Burger King chips: 300 cal.
*FULL DISCLOSURE: In order to maintain my "Queen of all things SNACK" I must be on top of ALL the new snacks that I come across. I found these babies at Walgreens (a GREAT place for finding weird food, by the way). The Flame Broiled was my favorite of the two. I'm not a big ketchup fan, but the Ketchup and Fries DID taste like ketchup and fries...good, if you're into that.
12:22 p.m.: Ham and Cheese whole grain Lean Pocket: 240 cal.
11:30 a.m.: 1 Diet Orange Soda: 0 cal.
4 baby carrots: 35 cal.
9:01 a.m.: 1 apple: 100 cal.
1 Yoplait light strawberry yogurt: 100 cal.
Happy August!
5:30 a.m.: XL Iced Coffee with 3 Equals
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